no one has ever looked into my eyes
asked me how I am
and waited to hear the reply.
I answer them,
I always do.
But they're four meters away
as my voice box vibrates insignificant words
my tongue touches my palate
and the words slip away
from my lips.

I figured out
my mistake today.
I realized what
I've been doing wrong
my whole life.
I realized the reason
why I've been failing.
I've been judging
my achievements
by comparing
myself to others.
This is why
I was failing.
I've been judging
my failures
by comparing
others to myself.
This is why
I was failing.
Let
me remember from today;
from this moment on,
that I am individual,
that I am my own,
that I am myself
and no other.
Let
it be engraved on
the master control
centre of my body,
on the cerebrum and
cerebellum of
my brain,
that this is why
I was failing.
That it was this reason
and no other.
Let
it be deepened
on to the convolutions
of my brain,
that this is why
I was failing.
That it was this reason
and no other.